Thursday, January 21, 2016

Alma 49

The parallel between the city of Ammonihah and true repentance strikes me today. The Lamenites had been able to cause destruction there previously because of the wickedness of the people, and so assumed they would be able to again. But the people had rebuilt it and strengthened it to the point that the Lamenites could not get anywhere in their attempts to attack it. Repentance is partially making weak things become strong through Jesus Christ. I have read things, and used to believe, that once you have given in to certain temptations that will also be a weakness for you, like if you give into the temptation of premarital sex you will be more tempted than other people to have an affair in your marriage. But with true repentance, true change of heart, that isn’t true. Our weaknesses become our greatest strengths. He changes us into something strong and pure and good, and impenetrable.
Sometimes life appears too overwhelming, and sometimes it is the wickedness in the world that seems too great to win against. Sometimes it is the wickedness in my heart that seems too big to conquer. Just like the Lamenite army was huge and well prepared, they believed they would easily overcome the Nephites. But because they Nephites were following Moroni in their preparations, who in his faith was following the Lord, they were strong enough to overcome insurmountable odds. With God nothing is impossible, even the war inside myself.
It is interesting that when the Lamenite captains got to Noah they had to attack even though they knew it was a bad idea, because they had sworn in front of the people to do it. It is a lesson in being careful with what you say. Is it also a lesson in honor, that they did what they swore to do, or is a lesson in pride that they would not back down because they had already sworn? Sometimes I am not sure which of those is a virtue. Like when I give my kids a punishment that I later regret, do I stick to it, or do I tell them I made a mistake a change it? Does changing my mind make them not trust me or respect what I say I will do? Maybe it matters why I changed my mind? I really struggle with this.

It is sad how many Lamenites died for no reason because of their stubborn leaders. Why were they willing to keep following them?

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