In verse 17 Amulek prays that God will grant people faith to
begin to repent. I have thought a lot lately about faith as a choice, but not
about faith as a gift. Is the relationship really that faith is a gift we
choose to accept? When I look it up, lds.org says faith is a gift that we must
then choose to nourish. I can’t really get my head around it this morning. I haven’t read scriptures in a week now—and
truthfully that often leads me to forget to pray. Not really forget, my heart
is constantly drawn out to God during the day as things happen. But the
conversation and seeking of morning and evening prayers is what I tend to let
go when I don’t read. And the longer I go without reading, the harder it is to
start again. It is really easy to be too busy or too tired. Today I am
exercising my faith and doing it. I am turning to Him and reading with a prayer
in my heart.
Cry unto Him for mercy, for He is mighty to save—I need His
mercy and His saving. Have mercy on me in my impatience, my laziness and
selfishness. Have mercy on me for my distance. He can change me, and will
forgive me.
And I do need to humble myself and continue in prayer to
Him. Who am I to not come to Him when he asks me to?
Again, the call to repentance on morning and evening
prayers.
When Amulek says to pray for an increase of your flocks, or monetary
help—sometimes I feel weird praying for increase. It is still such a hard line for
me to know what is being worldly and wanting money, and what is right. I suppose
it all has to do with my intent. But is wanting nice stuff bad? I really don’t know
the answer to that question. But it isn’t something I really pray about. I feel
like we have to take care of that ourselves, but that clearly isn’t right.
Verse 27 reminds me of our covenant to always remember Him. If
our soul is truly always drawn out in prayers, we would always be remembering Him.
I don’t feel like I am very good at always, but I am trying, and getting better.
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